uncertainties and its effect on nash's equilibrium

today we studied what nash equilibrium actually meant and why john nash deserved his nobel prize.. its really amazing that he got a nobel prize for something he did just to get his phd..
whats more appaling is the fact that the movie uses game theory in a wrong way....

rest is kinda fine... kal may go with nits depending on my scene :D
tada

22/08/2004

its after a long time that i have sat down to write nything.. least of all for my blog..
now i do feel that i am at one with the source.. whatever that means...

otherwise.. days seem to pass pretty fast over here.. leaving me dazed in the nights.. which are spent in a mix of chatting and some amt of work....
like right now..
when i am preparing some stupid screens for a stupider vb project.,.,.
how nice to be writing stuff instead..

abhilash

new day.. dark but interesting

aaj mast din hai ..
feeling happy for some unknown reasons.. maybe coz ghodu got a job.. maybe coz i am doing something i really wanted.. playing bridge..:D

will post later in day abt events that take place.. i think lot of em

bright new day! :)

actually not so bright.. but raining cats and dogs... but fir bhi .. i love today..
been practising carrom today.. even played a bit of aoe.. after a long long time..
read a couple of wodehouse short stories.. still feel magnificently good.. I would like to proclaim pg wodehouse as my patron saint..

listening to good old hindi songs interspesed with mi 2 theme is seriously fundoo...

Haloscan commenting and trackback have been added to this blog.

its monday!

its monday and i feel .... much better than yesterday...
actually now everyday i feel better .. maybe its because i have stopped blaming anyone else for whats happening... i am moving to a stage where i dont expect nything from anybody.. and i think staying cool with myself should be the way to go..

in the world war stage .. i go on to play carrom and bridge(probably).. should be nice kicking some ass after xams.... nah.. one shouldnt be vindictive. so ill just have a ball...

tada folks.. will post soon

where does this lead to?

hi ...
i think ill blog for the heck of it.. of trying to see how quickly my hands move over the keyboard in fluent motions of touch typing... its really incredible.... i can type blindfolded....so even if i go blind.. i can send emails from a random computer in the world....

nyways.. been seeing blogspots after a long time.. actually 4 5 days but still an eternity.... i have had my insides torn out..shredded and then thrown all over the place... just because i never came to terms with who i am and why i hate myself so much... if i had not read Illusions.. i would never have believed that there is no one universe... everybody has their own universes.. and try as u might... u will never figure in the good books of all of them... u will be disliked and ignored in a lot....seemed difficult to believe.. but i guess one has to come to terms with reality..

perceptions play such a huge part in shit.. people believe a lot of things.. people believe that so and so is successful in life.. or so and so is an acheiever... when actually so and so has been trying to run away from a lot of things in his life... actually that so and so is me.. and wherever i go i have been running away from something or someone.. or i took the easy way out..escapist that i am.. never comitted to anything or anybody in any aspect other than superficial..social u might say... some people also like to say that so and so is gay.. yeah maybe for the fun aspect of it..maybe coz people believe that since one is semi insane anyway.. he could also be...

actually the truth.. or the lie about the matter is ever so profound...that ill never understand it..about why the standard way never works for me.. in studies.. in life..with the one whom i proposed.. with the one whom i did not.. and with people as well.. i sound like a loser.. maybe i am .. but i guess its not a crime.. particularly if one comes to terms with being one....
"I am an idiot, a Loser.. a blogspot abuser."

i guess i have to find my own way out.. out of this place.. out in my professional life.. in my personal life as well...

lets see how far i go..
thanks folks if u read this.. if u dint.. whatever..
abhilash

confused..

now i understand what went through the minds of maggu's back in iit kgp days..when i used to chill out during exams and they used to slog their asses off.... after doing so for a week.. now just before the exams i need a break... i am in a state where information just refuses to go in.. and feel petrified because of that.. ...
if one were to take a snapshot of my mind.. would be pretty much what hell should look like..
in other words all hell has broken loose.. and there is no ray of hope... except maybe after midsems...when i will go into dhyan in the monastery on campus...

may god have pity on my body and the devil take my soul...
abhi